Making Decisions

For as long as I can remember I have wanted to do 2 things 1) be a doctor--the med school hours are not agreeable to having diabetes 2) Law School-- perfect for me because for those who know me I love to talk. So then it's a no brainer..how to get there. Well I have spent a good portion of the day looking up good LSAT study books and prep classes, and then finding a law school that allows me to keep working while in school is going to be a job in itself.I wish I would have gone when I passed the LSAT 10 years ago, but I obviously wasn't ready for that just yet. So am I ready now?? That is the question of the day and then what kind of law is the other. I don't know what to do...help me please. I need some input. This is a blog that requires a response so I had better get one at least.

I Miss you

There are people who come into our lives ever so briefly and then there are those who stick around, but I firmly believe they all come for a reason. My heart remains full for those who have touched me, even is it was only for a minute. I find that I fall in love with people everyday, no, not the kind of love that is romantic but rather the kind of love that helps fill the missing pieces. It usually consists of character traits..something about the personality just makes me want to be near them. I know that everyone has met someone or known someone that they just love to be around because it seems to make them the best version of themselves being close to that person.
Then there are those who you fall in love with, and when you look at them you see a future. I do not believe that you fall in love with only one person or only once in your life, I think maybe it's more the fact that you keep falling in love and getting your heart broken that leads you to the right person. I have had more than my fair share of heart breaks but I have also been fortunate enough to love.
The hardest part for both is letting go of that love however it effects you. Friends, lovers there is so much gray in that area that no one person or any number of words can ever express. You can't help who you fall in love with, you're not supposed to.....which leads me to the fact that we should however control and protect the ever so fragile human heart. I try to tell the people that I love that I do love them whenever possible, it makes me feel good no matter how it is accepted. But I am positive that there are people I should have said it to but because I was young, naive or possibly afraid of getting hurt I didn't. So embarking on a new phase of my life I am determined to let people know that I do care, I do love them and I do miss them. This is a late New Year's resolution but this one is strictly for me.